Cheers to New Beginnings

Figured I would start a new blog and do me some good because I'm definitely in need of some sunshine - so time to create some :)

I just blew off my steam and now it's time to let go of that negative energy. Because that just isn't me. No one is at fault. No one is to blame except for my own. I'm the one in control of my life. I'm in control of the choices I've made.

I definitely know I've been holding a lot of it in, and to it top off right now, Mother Nature is about to bless me any day now, so I am a walking grenade. With that being said, before I destroy everything around me. It's time for me to direct that explosive energy and make positive use of it.

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If I have learned anything this year, it is that I won't ever be ready for what life throws at me. I won't have the right words when it counts; I won't know what to choose when fate itself is staring me down. But now I know I don't always need to have the right answer.

I've learned I can go on waiting for something, sustained by hope and love and nothing more - or I can put it aside and shrug my shoulders. Bravely accept the fact that i can't keep my heart safe any more than I can stop love from taking everything from me. 

I have learned to stop saying yes when I don't mean it - to live an authentically as I know how. To allow the tips of my fingers to skirt the darkness, as long as I remember to keep my eyes fixed on the light. And as one door opens and another closes, I will move forward with the knowledge that unlike so many others, I have another year ahead of me - another shot at making it all the way around the sun, and a chance to get it right this time round.

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On Sunday, I had my bowling league as per usual but then met up with my cousin Ate Bobo Lois for some ramen. Which was quite disappointing, then again there was so much hype on it that it pretty much deteriorated my hopes. But regardless, it was really nice catching up with her. We opened up to each other and actually discovered things we had no idea about each other. 

After scarfing down the ramen, I head to Nandos to pick up my lovely cousin Ashley and Ate Bobo Lois heads back to pick up the two monkeys (Tee and Chen). Then we meet with em' at 'Sweet Tooth' which is a rolled icecream shop. Everyone chose different flavors which was awesome so we had a chance to try every flavor. I had the London Fog infused with Fruit Loops, Ash got the Purple Yam, Chen got the Hulk which was Matcha, but then Ate Bobo Lois and Tee both got a chocolate one which had nutella and brownies. 

We spent a good chunk just reminiscing over memories we had when we were younger and just goofing around like we normally do.

Was really good letting loose and letting the laughter and joy take over.

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I keep replaying 'All I Ask' By: Bruno Mars. I'm kind of thinking of singing this when I get back to the open mic. Not sure when i'll be ready to get back on stage but I'm thinking. I know Josh still wants to write a song together, so maybe it'll be the second song i'll do.

Toodles for now :)