Cobbs Family Corn Maze ♡

  

Got to do something this year I really wanted to do last year and that was .... COBBS FAMILY CORN MAZE! Ugh, I was super stoked to go this year. First off, I don't know how I agreed to do it but I went with Sara during the night of screams. (Screamfest did a collab with the cornmaze) So we went into the haunted maze and I have never sworn so many times in my life. Sara was a champ. Then again, she loves horror movies. 

Anywho, this was near the end of the night. But before that, we went and petted KANGAROOS. My heart is still melting to this day. They were so adorable. Then we went and did the slide and some puzzles. We spent at least 30 mins at one puzzle but we just could not figure it out. After we headed to the zorbing and the hay ride. Honestly, zorbing was so much fun. After all that craziness we grabbed some grub before going into the haunted corn maze. It was hilarious because I liked how we said we were going to grab a snack and yet we grabbed so much food. 

There were actually two corn mazes to do, that one and another regular corn maze. It wasn't too scary though, you could literally walk through everything. But because it was dark out you had to use a flashlight.

Once we got out we cozied by the fire. I don't know what it is but sitting by the fire on a cold night is so perfect. 

Twas definitely a great way to break into Autumn. ♡

 

Stampede Adventure ♡ 2017

 

Could've sworn I blogged about Stampede this year but I guess not. Started off the day going to Stampede to get the early bird special (or somethin' like that) with le cousins. Got stampede breakfast which was tha bomb and then some sweet lemonade ♡ Scoped out the grounds then left to go to a puppy stampede breakfast with our furbabies which was the CUTEST thing ever. There were so many puppies everywhere, it was so adorable. 

 

Then went BACK for round two with the cousins and the brother as well. Just had to go back to watch Alex Aiono. Went for more rides and watched the beautiful fireworks. Was definitely a beautiful and adventerous day. Just doesn't feel like stampede if I don't go with the pamilia.

Catch-Up!

Noticed that there hasn't really been an update on my pages and such so many updates coming soon!!

Soundtrack(s)

Best albums that have been on constant replay this year have been Freudian by: Daniel Caesar and Sweet Sexy Savage by: Kehlani.

Not only have they been beautiful melodically but just downright hitting the feels. They not only helped me through moments but are the perfect car drive music.

Eric San Miguel ♡ 1973-2017

I never thought I would lose you so soon. 

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Thank you. Thank you for everything. Thank for being like a father figure to not only myself but to my brother and my cousins. I wish I told you sooner but here we are. I also want you to know that  I love you. 

I regret not being there an hour sooner. Only an hour that I missed you before you took your last breath. I saw that you fought right till the end. But I am happy that you are no longer in pain. Although you fought for only a month, you fought courageously. 

I remember finding out the news and leaving work as soon as possible to go see you with the family. I remember walking into the room with my aunt and mother sitting down on the couch. You asking how everyone was, if everyone ate. You walked around the room as if nothing happened. The next thing I know I'm outside crying on the porch cause I didn't know how to handle it. Moments when I feel like I start to lose someone to the wretched reaper himself, why? Why him? He has one of the biggest and kindest hearts I know. He's never judgmental. He's supportive and loving. I didn't want to cry around him because I couldn't imagine what it's like for him facing this. I felt like I would make him feel worse. I get back inside, my aunt and mother went upstairs to see his wife. So it's just me, him, and my other aunt. I sit back on the couch and he walks over to me and he tells me to eat and I just burst into tears and I hold onto him. I don't think I've ever held onto somebody for so long and hard like I did to Tito Eric. I never wanted to let him go. I felt like the harder I held him, the more time he would get. I don't know. Then all he tells me, is that it's okay. And it breaks me apart even more. Because it's not okay. It sucks. It fucking sucks. Wanting somebody to stay but you have no control over it. 

Eventually the Cancer spread too fast for him and he took his last breath on November 9th. 

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The aftermath of losing someone doesn't just come in moments, it comes in waves. Some days you're fine and then there's other days where it completely consumes you and you're drowning. 

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Miss you ♡ ESM

Bake-aholic

One thing i'm most excited for with the move; baking! I have finally perfected my Tres Leche cake. <3

Down For You

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